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Saturday, September 08, 2007 @ 6:12 PM
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Wednesday, September 05, 2007 @ 11:44 PM
OMG. I feel so super stressed up. I need to seriously chill. Cos' nothing should make me so super darn stressed. I think the whole juggling 5 modules, 20 hours' work per week, and shuffling between City Hall and Chinatown Point is taking its toll on me.
Maybe that explains the lump at the back of my head.
But you know, I just can't stop working. I wish I can.
It just gets too tiring sometimes. But whenever I think of this, I will think of what kind of unfilial daughter I am.
So yes, I just want to whine. I'll be fine.
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Monday, September 03, 2007 @ 10:54 PM
 Hey been wanting to blog about Kelley's little princess: Ashley! I think she is so adorable! Even though I haven't met her in person, yet. But every time when I am on msn with Kelley, looking at her msn display picture (always be Ashley) it somehow cheers up my day. Nothing beats seeing a baby being so happy.
Anyway I've been getting more excited about going for the exchange already, though it wasn't my first choice. Suzi and I have been making sub-plans during class, doodling little ideas on our notes.
And I think I was being an dumbass just now when I was talking to my mum. I was saying that if I'm sick she can send parcel full of medications for me. Then she mumbled: Can you don't go? What if you fall sick?
I think my mum is so sweet. Just now I told her got another lump growing at the back of my head and then she rubbed some ointment on me, I've no idea if it would work. And like the one on my neck the other time, this one is growing as well, just that it doesn't hurt. But I've been having splitting headaches the whole day. It's the time of the month. :( Making me so lethargic.
Grrr. Tomorrow is Tuesday. Tuesday is the beginning of 3-day in a row of morning classes for me. Usually by Thursday night when I finish the last class of the week at 10plus, I will be like a zombie.
Sometimes I feel a little resentful of things at home. But at the end of the day, I look at my mum and know who's having a harder time in this house.
Anyway, the good thing about juggling school and work is that I realised I've got no spare time for procrastination.
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Sunday, September 02, 2007 @ 11:50 PM
I'm a little exhausted from reading all that MA gibberish. Okay maybe not gibberish since its written by 3 PhD holders. I think I just don't have that accounting-ness in me.
I think I tend to appear can't-be-bothered sometimes just so people won't know how much its affecting me. I know I can't be feeling as bad as you are. But its just f-ed up cos' I know I lost a friend for sure.
You know how sometimes pride stands in the way of seemingly logical thoughts.
I just hope you are fine though I didn't pick up that phone to call you to check because. Because.
I know its not the best arguments of all. I could have said a thousand other things.
But its been a long time I feel so detached from everything. Even from my own feelings. Cos' sometimes I don't act the way I feel anymore. Example: I hate accounting, but I am torturing myself into studying it for the past 2 days. Another example: Okay, I decided this is not a good example after thinking about it, so I'm not gonna type it.
Aiya shit. I just feel damn bad the entire day because I know I've let someone down real bad.
But you reminds me of how I used to be.
And although its been so long. Almost a year. This question has still been on my mind: why did you leave?
And anyway, I just parted with 2 weeks worth of hard-earned money on bills. I'm officially broke. :)
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Saturday, September 01, 2007 @ 3:04 AM
I'm just back from watching 1408 with Jas, Yuting and Weiling. Thought that the movie was quite dumb. It scared me a little in the beginning cos' of the expectations that it was going to be freaky. But then soon I realised its too exaggerating and dumb so I viewed it in a more "comedy" like manner. At least I didn't jump much in my seat.
Got the sad news that I wasn't going to Hong Kong for exchange afterall. I pinned too much hope on it, so much so that I didn't even thought about proper backup plans! And the school offered me my second choice (which Suzi and I had put in as a "make up for numbers" sort of stunt), which is....
Korea University.
Please read THIS to get my honest opinion of Korea when I went 2 years ago.
But after many hours since I got wind that I'm no longer going to HK afterall, it began to sink in that I should really consider and brace myself for the Culture Shock Part II. But also I've managed to come up with good reasons to go Korea Uni (Persuasion 101):
1. I can actually lose weight for that 4 or 5 months. (The food! Please read THIS again)
2. Actually read up Yeefang's (Gillian's) blog on her exchange in Korea early this year and it actually seems fun!
3. I've never seen snow in my life before and this is a very good chance! (If its still snowing next February)
4. I can actually go visit Yuting in Japan when she starts her Japanese course next year.
5. I actually miss the weather in Korea. Beats the heat.
6. Jianxiong and Suzi will be in Korea too, though we would all be in different schools.
7. There's nothing much to shop there (I verified this when I went over 2 years ago, not sure if things have changed). I can actually save much money (at least compared to crazy shopping in HK)
8. Will be able to pick up some basic Korean.
9. Can actually leave Singapore for a good 4 or 5 months! I can learn to be more independent!
10. SMU's academic stress is too much for me to take. And I don't want to not do exchange at all.
So yes, shall go to the OIR (Office of International Relations - or something like that) and get more information.
It's fated. I shall find out more from my Korean profs and the Korean exchange student in my group.
Actually I had this nagging feeling for the whole day that I won't be getting HK at all. It's just a little hard to swallow down. :(
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007 @ 8:51 PM
This is just great, I'm having fever again.
Ah, knew you weren't that great anyway, and I'm not wrong. Irksome.
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Monday, August 27, 2007 @ 1:14 AM
Met up with Val, Orange and Junyi last night for Zouk. And Val was commenting that my new hairstyle looks like wig. And I told Yanzu whom I haven't contacted for a while that its actually a wig. And he actually believed la.
I feel so disciplined, actually did my MA (Management Accounting) homework before heading out to meet Wenqi for dinner. But he's damn bad la, refused to watch movie when I'm dying to watch so many shows! :(
It's a start of a brand new week again! I should really catch up with my readings.
倔强 五月天
当我和世界不一样那就让我不一样
坚持对我来说就是以刚克刚
我如果对自己不行如果对自己说谎
即使你不原谅我也不能原谅
最美的愿望一定最疯狂
我就是我自己的神在我活的地方
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强
对爱我的人别紧张我的固执很善良
我的手越肮脏眼神越是发光
你不在乎我的过往看到了我的翅膀
你说被火烧过才能出现凤凰
逆风的方向更适合飞翔
我不怕千万人阻挡只怕自己投降
我和我最后的倔强握紧双手绝对不放
下一站是不是天堂就算失望不能绝望
我和我骄傲的倔强我在风中大声的唱
这一次为自己疯狂就这一次我和我的倔强
就这一次让我大声唱
就算失望不能绝望
就这一次我和我的倔强
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Friday, August 24, 2007 @ 12:23 AM
It's been such a long and tiring day. 2 classes and 4 hours of work. Gosh. It's only the first week and already I'm so drained.
And it doesn't help that someone made my day lousy. And luckily I've got friends to unload to. It helps to talk to SK too, after ICB. I must constantly remind myself what he said, don't let someone else determine my happiness! EQ goes a long way.
Like a snail, I may be slow, but I know I will get there someday.
The night class (Equity) was okay, the prof is nice, giving us "mind breaks". And I kind of like the pace of teaching.
But then I'm falling sick again. I'm not made of steel. I wish I don't have so much bills and debts to clear. So yeah, I envy SK's little boy. He rocks.
And then I've decided to dedicate my weekends to pure studying, because I've got no time in the weekdays to do so. So much sacrifices, I just hope at the end of the sem, its worth it. Cos' I've only got myself to answer to. And Monica says I should put in more effort in my studies.
I need to chill. I'm too stressed up.
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Tuesday, August 21, 2007 @ 11:37 PM
Just thought of something very random. It's amazing how much our brains can hold. Even to the smallest details such as where you placed your hair pin or something like that. I only thought about this because whilst I was in the cab last night, from town to home. After travelling vide that route home for the last 17 years or so, I already know the exact traffic light sequence after you exit AMK Ave 3 and filter right towards Hougang.
And I wonder how many other small little details like that I managed to pack in my brain for the past 22 years.
I feel so sorry for Bong. I'm too busy in the day and too bloody dog (pun intended) tired to play with her (or him, my family is questioning the dog's sex, will talk about this later) in the night. And I think she's/he's very lonely, resorting to poking fun at my hamsters. And I'm too tired tonight to bring her/him out for a walk too. :(
Anyway, I thought I saw a little dick growing on Bong, and my parents agreed too. But Bong's supposed to be a female! Okay, I don't know much about dogs and I'm lazy to google it now.
I just wish you can stop pushing me. Relax, chill. I wish I don't have to be so mean. But I want to be firm. Please.
Sometimes I see myself in others. And sometimes noticing the behaviours of others in me, when I was once a spectator witnessing how I was being dealt with. And boy, do I know how it feels.
I know this stinks. I'm really sorry.
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@ 9:32 AM
Never ever again will I go KTV the night before a 8.30 morning class. And the alarm I set on my handphone didn't manage to jump start my day! But I managed to shower, blow dry my hair, iron my clothes, put on make-up, feed Bong, pack my bag, grab some food and rush out to the bus stop within 30 minutes! But I'm still late la.
And I got a shock when I got in here for my Ethics class. The David E. I pictured in my mind: young, suave, humorous, soul-breaking eyes. But this one looks like an old (literally) buddy of my good ol' EAL Prof from last sem. And you thought everyone would have retired when they hit 62.
I am damn bad.
Anyway wanted to drop my Industrial Organisation (IO) class after I printed out the notes. So much mathematics! :( But GM Lee is damn nice la. Made me paiseh in class. But already formed a group with Suzi and Chong Geng, so I am going to try to practice my maths.
Met up with Frank after class yesterday for movie. We really watched a locally produced Hokkien Chicago. Okay, we watched 881, because I pretty much watched all the other shows. Some parts were so ridiculous it made us laughed and evoked some "f**ks" from Frank. And we went for dinner at Labyrinth's KTV pub and realised he can really sing! I don't remember hearing him sing so well many years ago. HAHA. We hit KBox after that, which was why I slept so late and woke up late.
And its not fun being late for class, damn stressed one leh. And I want to be a good student this sem! And this is just the first of the 3 morning classes I'm having. One more on Thursdays and another on Fridays. I am so gonna die on Thursdays! My classes are like 8.30am and then I have work at 2pm and then I have another class at 7pm! What a wonderful prelude to smashing good weekends to come!
I'm sitting here pretending to be listening to my prof yakking on when all I want to do is to shit.
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